That’s a good question. Aren’t yoga teachers supposed to be all spiritually evolved, sugar dairy and booze eschewing, clean eating and bendy people to look up to?
That’s pretty much exactly what rolls through my mind. A lot.
I used to believe that I was a bad yogi/seeker/eater/person.
You see, I have what’s lovingly known as an ittybittyshittycommittee in my head. IBSC for short. You probably have an IBSC too. That nasty voice that says things so mean, so rude, so all around awful to you about you that, if you said it to someone else you would run the risk of getting smacked or forcibly removed from their LIFE.
Yeah, that mean little guy. I’ve spent a lot of time organizing my self-confidence around what he had to say…
and what other people might have to say.
What if ________ saw me? What if my mentors knew that I like beer? What if people knew that I’m not all organic all the time?
Well, it wouldn’t make me a lesser yoga teacher, doula or healer.
In fact, it makes me a better one.
I know what it’s like to worry and struggle. To doubt yourself. To hide your true nature. I get it.
Now, I get to help you find the way to your best self. Your truth.
And ultimately, it comes down to this.
We’re complicated.
I’m a hippie, householding, homebrewing, yoga sharing, desire-mapping steadfastly mercurial hypochondriac that hates walls but wants to live in a tinyhouse.
And I like to share the things I’m good at. They are often really different things. Sometimes downright contradictory. Sometimes they only seem that way.
Duality makes us who we are.
So, there are those who don’t like what I teach. Or that I love weird stuff. I’m not everyone’s cuppa tea. Buuuut…
I’m alright.
So are you.
Give the IBSC a rest, that voice doesn’t need to be heard all the time.
You are alive, reading this right now, so you get the opportunity to be you. Messily, contradictorily, totally YOU.
There will always be people that aren’t YOUR cuppa tea. You can start by letting go of people you can’t be YOU with.
And by letting go, I mean letting go of caring so much about what other people think.
Easy?
Not usually.
Worth it?
Yup.
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